Still rmbr abt 1yr ago, I'm the most fortunate and happiest girl in this world, I swear. Almost everyone's envious and jealous of me. I tot I finally found the one I'm gg to spend my entire life with. The feeling he gave me back then, it's totally different frm other guys out there. Things didn't startout really smooth for us. We started hanging out for awhile, before I suddenly ignored him for a mthn, due to personal reasons, but still, he waited for me. He's always there for me, when I nd-ed someone. He's always there for me, when I nd-ed a shoulder to cry on. He's always there for me, cheering me up, whenever I'm feeling down. He's always there for me, giving me advices and persuading me to let go of my previous r/s, cause he told me tht it hurts to see me crying over someone who doesn't deserve it. He'll hug me and tell me not to worry, cause nomatter what happened, he'll always be by my side. Soon, touched by his sincerity, I agreed to be his girlf. At tht very moment, frm his eyes, I can clearly see tht he's really happy. It's as if he's got the whole world in his hands. I won't ever forget tht face of his. 1st few mthns of the r/s, we're inseparable. We'll meet almost everyday, if possible. He'll morningcall me just to makesure I'm not late for my classes. He'll call me suddenly, just to makesure I'm alright. He'll call me at night just to makesure I'm gg to bed early. He'll surprise me with presents and whatnot at my doorsteps. He'll bring me out for dates. He'll fetch me frm sch aftr my classes. He'll fight with me on who loves who more. He'll plan our future tgt with me. He'll tell me tht he wants to marry me and start a small family of our own. He'll tell me tht in this life, he's gonna stick with me forever. He'll name me as the burden which he's willing to carry for the rest of his life. He'll annoy the fuck out of me. He'll get all worried for me when I didn't reply his texts/pickup his calls. He'll text me almost 24/7. He'll send me sweet and long texts. He'll call me sweet and stupid names. He'll tell me how fortunate he's to have me as his girlf. He'll pinch my cheeks and nose when I'm slping. He'll hug me rdmly and tell me how much he loves me. These're just a few of the sweet things I can think of right nw tht he used to commit back then. Aftr the 1st few mthns, our r/s started to have its ups and downs. I'll nvr forget tht moment, when he begged me to stay, at the bus stop, aftr a huge quarrel. Frm his eyes, I can clearly see tht he's really remorseful. Indeed, I forgave him and gave him a chance. Not long aftr, smth fuckedup again and also, he begged me to stay. He asked to give him another chance to prove tht he's different frm other guys out there. Again, I agreed and gave him another chance. However, the times spent tgt with him got lesser and lesser. Me being me, forever wanting fuckloads of attention, time and affection frm the guy I love, got really pissed and started venting my anger and throwing my tantrums at him for no fucking reason. In the end, we'd a huge quarrel. Frm then on, things turned out really differently. He got really pissed and he said to give him sometime, to think if he still loves me and if we should still be back tgt. This time round, I begged him to stay. He did, but still, things just not the same anymore. He started to treat me really cold. It hurts, so fucking bad tht all I can do's to stayhome and cry, everyday and everynight. Everything he used to do for me back then, he's not doing any of them anymore. It's like, he totally changed to a different person. Is it me who changed him? Perhaps, he'd alr lost feelings for me. Perhaps, he doesn't want me as much as he used to. Perhaps, he's still really cross with me. I'm sry, I really am. If thousands of apologies and by begging him on my knees can ease his anger and bring back who he used to be, I'll gladly do all those. I really wish he can change back to the sweet and loving boyf I once had. I really miss the past us, and the silly, but sweet things we used to do. I really miss wakingup to see him slping soundly, right beside me. I swear I'm willing to giveup everything just for us to be back like last time, again. I want this r/s to workout so much, so fucking much. We promised each other forever, less than 3, rmbr? Till nw, I still believe, believe tht we're meant to be. Do u? (':(':